WHAT I BEEN UP TO

Wasn't gonna post but since me and my lil mama gonna be hella busy this weekend I figured I need to post something before my blog gets shut down.

Thanksgiving was great, I ate soooooo much that night, went to sleep then woke up at 3 am and ate some more then rolled my ass into the bed still burping. Now that's living.

I keep feeling bad cause I can't really grant none of the little ones christmas wishes this year but then I remember that these days having something in their belly IS a christmas wish and I don't feel too bad. How are these holidays treating your pockets? This christmas has been straight disrespecting my pockets.

I am out of default on one of my loans and making payments on the other two. It feels so good not to have a bunch of unknown numbers on my phone harassing me for money. This must be what it feels like to be white.

I tried to call my cousin over the holiday and see if she was cooking but her house, cell and business phone were all cut off. Guess I won't be going there lol. Its crazy how the only way to reach her is email....oh shit her internet might be cut off too, oh well there's always smoke signals.

One of my cousins just got out of jail from doing 12 years and is staying with his little sister. You would think that after losing half your life to the system he would be more appreciative at a second chance but all this fool does is complain. When my cousin slides him a much needed $30 out of her purse he starts talking about the nights he used to make over $1000. She is better than me cause I would have put his ass out the house... AFTER getting my $30 back. Shit gas is back to $2, thats a tank and a half .

My lil mama told me whatever I was gonna spend on buying her a christmas present I should keep it and treat myself......YEAH RIGHT!!!!! She loves saying bullshit like that, this way she gets the credit for saying that plus she gets the actual present which she was expecting all along. What should I get her? I was thinking of an ipod player for her car so she can have all her music with her instead of changing cd's. Thats the kind of gifts I like to give, something you can actually use.



To make outside calls at our job you have to dial 9-1-bullshit ass number you wanna call. Me and the dude who sits next to me were discussing whether we would have to dial 9-1-1 or 9-1-9-1-1 in case the fired dude came back to kill us. Tell me why to prove his point this fool picks up the phone and accidentally called the motherfuckin police.



He gets scared and hangs up. Not 5 seconds later security calls and asks us if we are ok because the police were called from our desk. My friend says we're fine and thats it..no patrol, no swing by, nothing. What if dude had us in a corner fuckin our asses up? Boy I tell you.

You know you are broke when you start eyeing the charity toy box at work and start wondering if you could sneak that power ranger on the top out for your kids without getting caught.

So....what are you doing to get ready for the holidays?

STUCK IN THE MIDDLE WITH YOU

I gotta admit a little bit i was sick of rap/but despite that the boy is back

Jay-Z - Kingdom come

I don't know why I haven't been posting but I just couldn't be bothered. Sorry. Excuse me if I told you this already but this dude at my job got fired a while back. We found out that a few weeks later that the stress of not working gave him a diabetes attack or something. Crazy , huh? Anyway there is this other guy they are about to fire tomorrow and I think I might stay home for that one cause he is cuckoo cuckoo cuckoo. Long story short, they keep avoiding telling him he sucks and keep trying to snowball him. They tried to help him out and set him up with an interview at another branch and he said he's not interested. IF YOUR BOSS TELLS YOU TO GO ON AN INTERVIEW FOR ANOTHER JOB SHOULDN'T YOU REALIZE THEY TRYING TO FIRE YOU?

This guy really thinks in his mind that he is one of the better employees there because everyone is afraid to tell him the truth.

1. because despite his work performance he really is a nice guy and is always trying to bring everyone breakfast and etc..

2. he is really into guns and him and his italian buddies have like a little gun club and go hunting and to shooting ranges etc

I normally take no days off but tomorrow might have to be one of them. This economy is no joke . A job IS worth killing over cause it will be a looooong time before he finds another one.

My lil mama and I are planning a lovers weekend where she put the kids at her mamas and we gonna go on a real date like normal people. I can't wait, we hardly ever see each other and never get to just relax and eat good food and laugh at movies and all that. We gonna do just a little bit of christmas shopping because she is working again and we might be able to buy the kids some little cheap stuff. So if y'all dont hear from me for a while you know im cupcaked up somewhere up under her.

One of my cousins has a crazy baby daddy. They had a really big phone argument and he came over in the night and bust all her car windows and slashed her tires . The stupid idiot forgot my cousin told him several times there is a girl a few doors over who got the same kind of car as her



He bust the wrong windows. Foolie Magoolie. The next morning my cousin come out and sees the girl outside crying cause her shit is all tore up and don't know why, it was so awkward but she didn't say shit. You wouldn't have either.

This dude at work told me he was having an intimate conversation with his sister........yeah thats what i said too. He's getting a dictionary for christmas.

Me and the dude who sits next to me at work wore the exact same shirt to work today. We got so many gay/chuck and larry/gay marriage/life partner jokes that at 9 I put my hot ass sweater back on and sweated my ass off. That shirts getting burned.

My aunt is in the hospital and it looks pretty bad. My sister said if anything were to happen its up to us kids to put our money together and take care of the arrangements. Auntie has no life insurance. I almost told her I have no savings cause I gotta take care of my lil mama . I stopped myself cause that explanation would have just opened up another can of worms.

Big sis: So you can't even help us bury our tee tee cause you giving some little ghetto hoochie with 9 kids alll your money? YOUR FAMILY COMES FIRST!!!

If I tell my lil mama shes on her own cause I gotta save up in case something bad happens

Lil mama: You need to tell your sister Im about to be your wife and you gotta take care of home first. Your auntie kids need to come up with something. Im not about to let my kids not have food to eat cause they aint taking care of their mama like they should, thats not your responsibility. If it was your mama I'd understand but your auntie got 2 grown kids and the lord will provide them with something.

Poor me, I'm screwed no matter what I do. So....what do you think I should do?

NOTHING GOING ON BUT THE RENT

LIL MAMA FOUND A JOB!!!!!!




I promise you I did the same dance when she told me. This past 3 months has seen the some of the most trying times I could imagine.Not only financially but emotionally as well. She was so defensive cause she knows she has so much baggage to begin with and now being jobless was making things that much harder. Any time I tried to make a suggestion or ask how the job search was going she would feel I was looking down on her (even though I wasn't)and she would lash out about how I acted like she wasn't trying. Then I would be mad cause she was taking her frustration out on me when all I was trying to do is make OUR situation better.It's crazy how money problems can make things so tense. But all in all I really dont think we did that bad. My sister and her common law husband used to fight and scratch everyday over money and they used to go days without speaking,sleep in separate beds etc.. So I think we did pretty good.

It's crazy how many aspects of our life this effected. I told a couple of my closer friends when she stopped working and after a while of her not working they started pointing out how I was totally taking care of another dudes kids, I was working massive amounts of overtime but stayed extra broke, I was wasting my golden years being bogged down by someone elses responsibilities instead of taking advantage of life etc...I started dreading their questions and eventually told them I'd rather not talk about her right now cause we are going through a lot of things. I wasn't ashamed but I felt like everyone thought I was a sucker











I feel like in a way this has made our relationship a little stronger. We been through the fire and didn't kill each other.I really gained a new level of respect for her as a woman and mother because she ain't no ordinary chick shes a brick house



At any time she could have went to the club and found a baller and ended her misery but she stuck through and tightened the budget and squeezed a dollar out of fifteen cents cause she knows having a stable home and family for her kids is worth more than silver and gold.I really have no trepidation now about marrying this woman. I know a real woman when I see her.

At first I used to always feel a little insecure because she's used to dating dudes from the street who could leave home and come back that night thousands of dollars richer and I punch a clock for a living. She never really mentioned that but it was in the back of my mind. I guess in a way it made me feel a little more... manly (for lack of a better word) in her eyes cause she wasnt working for so long but still had a man who could keep the kids fed and the lights on. These are just my thoughts people,however that last part sounded to you, I just give you the world as I see it.

I know I womped y'all a little bit this time but I had to share a little bit of what I been going through this year. thanks for everyone who leaves comments , I promise I'll try to hit your blogs back when I have a spare moment but as y'all see being superman isnt easy. As usual any advice or input you leave is always appreciated

So...have you ever been in a relationship where lack of money came into play?

RANDOM

This post is gonna be mad random because I'm just swamped these days as far as work and personal life.Maintaining a blog is harder than it seems.

*My oldest sister I love her with all my heart but the girl is a certified dodo brain.One time I had a really really old piece of shit car. I was getting a new car and I asked her to sell the old one for a measly $200. I could have got more but just wanted the car out of my life.Tell me why a couple weeks later I show up to get my snaps and she told me she only sold the car for $100




THIS GIRL CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT!! I asked her why,

Big sis: well the girl didn't wanna pay the full price cause the windshield has a crack in it,and the passenger window doesn't roll down

me: (cutting her off) WHAT THE FUCK SHE WAS EXPECTING FOR $200 A ROLLS ROYCE?

BS: I felt bad so I gave it to her for $100

me: sigh.... so wheres the $100

BS: well what had happened was.....

Sigh.What else? oh yeah,for the most part I've stopped posting about my lil mama for now.There is a lot of stuff going on and it's not fair for either of us for me to constantly tell y'all bad things about her. She's a really great person and always hearing about how many obstacles are in my way because of her is starting to make some of my real friends not like her and that is kind of unfair cause she's really terrific and should get a fair shot. One of my friends told me I should end it because it doesn't seem like she's bringing anything to the table. They were kinda right but I can't dump her cause someone else said so, but the more I say what we're going through the more I make myself look like a chump. I don't wanna be one of those people who look stupid cause they always complain about something but never change it.I wish I could come on here and tell y'all about all kinds of great dates we go on and we're planning trips to vegas and LA and fancy candlelight dinners and all that TI whatever you like kind of shit but I'd be lying.Long story short, I'm not living the kind of life I'd be living if I wasn't with her. I don't care , I know she's one in a million and I'm just gonna ride this shit out and see where we end up . But it's been my recent experience that not everybody sees that as a noble thing. Some of my peeps think I'm downright stupid.I kinda started this blog because there are so many things I can't say in my real life but alas even here I have to look at what kind of image I put out. I guess in all aspects she has to remain my little secret. As usual any input you have on this is encouraged.


*Saturday night was drinking night. our super came by the spot already drunk and invited us to come over and drink. I didnt have any and thank god i didn't. He got on the turntables and played I always feel like somebody's watching me over and over again. I wasn't even drunk and I moonwalked my ass off so imagine if I was.Then my super proceeds to tell us how last week he smashed out this old lady who lives around us



he even started reenacting it by doing the girl pushups, needless to say we broke the hell out. We watched a bootleg of righteous kill (movie was ehhhhh...). Super comes over and in his drunken foolishness pulls out a $50 and gives it to my neighbors to buy some more beers and stuff to bring back to him. Mannnnnn they grubbed their asses off with that money. I paid for my own food cause im not grimey like that, but they are. They bought mad smirnoffs from the store and we finished watching the movie buzzed out of this world. Not so much me, I only had one cause they kept begging me. The next morning I passed by their door on the way to the store and the super was banging on the door like fred flintstone and shit

Super: Hey yall what the fuck happened to yall last night? and wheres my change? I gave y'all $50. I know y'all in there!!!!!

I just kept walking and laughed to myself, man these are some crazy people.So....what's new with you?