NOTHING GOING ON BUT THE RENT

LIL MAMA FOUND A JOB!!!!!!




I promise you I did the same dance when she told me. This past 3 months has seen the some of the most trying times I could imagine.Not only financially but emotionally as well. She was so defensive cause she knows she has so much baggage to begin with and now being jobless was making things that much harder. Any time I tried to make a suggestion or ask how the job search was going she would feel I was looking down on her (even though I wasn't)and she would lash out about how I acted like she wasn't trying. Then I would be mad cause she was taking her frustration out on me when all I was trying to do is make OUR situation better.It's crazy how money problems can make things so tense. But all in all I really dont think we did that bad. My sister and her common law husband used to fight and scratch everyday over money and they used to go days without speaking,sleep in separate beds etc.. So I think we did pretty good.

It's crazy how many aspects of our life this effected. I told a couple of my closer friends when she stopped working and after a while of her not working they started pointing out how I was totally taking care of another dudes kids, I was working massive amounts of overtime but stayed extra broke, I was wasting my golden years being bogged down by someone elses responsibilities instead of taking advantage of life etc...I started dreading their questions and eventually told them I'd rather not talk about her right now cause we are going through a lot of things. I wasn't ashamed but I felt like everyone thought I was a sucker











I feel like in a way this has made our relationship a little stronger. We been through the fire and didn't kill each other.I really gained a new level of respect for her as a woman and mother because she ain't no ordinary chick shes a brick house



At any time she could have went to the club and found a baller and ended her misery but she stuck through and tightened the budget and squeezed a dollar out of fifteen cents cause she knows having a stable home and family for her kids is worth more than silver and gold.I really have no trepidation now about marrying this woman. I know a real woman when I see her.

At first I used to always feel a little insecure because she's used to dating dudes from the street who could leave home and come back that night thousands of dollars richer and I punch a clock for a living. She never really mentioned that but it was in the back of my mind. I guess in a way it made me feel a little more... manly (for lack of a better word) in her eyes cause she wasnt working for so long but still had a man who could keep the kids fed and the lights on. These are just my thoughts people,however that last part sounded to you, I just give you the world as I see it.

I know I womped y'all a little bit this time but I had to share a little bit of what I been going through this year. thanks for everyone who leaves comments , I promise I'll try to hit your blogs back when I have a spare moment but as y'all see being superman isnt easy. As usual any advice or input you leave is always appreciated

So...have you ever been in a relationship where lack of money came into play?