ONE SWEET DAY

Last night I saw you in my dreams
now I can't wait to go to sleep

Kanye


The lady who makes the food is dead :(




My aunt passed away and even though I saw it coming I still can't believe it. I used to live with her as a teenager because my mom had a lot going on at the time. She would come home from work and go to her favorite place, the stove. I wonder how I stayed so skinny through high school cause I had a big meal every single day. Anyway my oldest sis got on everybodys nerves by constantly asking us how much we were putting for the funeral when we'd already told her we don't have anything. To understand our annoyance you have to know my oldest sis' boyfriend/common law husband takes care of all her bills. She could lay her chunky ass in bed all day everyday and there would still be food in the fridge. She has never faced the cold world alone like we have. She lived under our moms roof till her early twenties then moved in with her common law husband. Girlfriend has extra money put away and just can't understand why the rest of us don't. Her and our mom had a pretty nasty argument because she thinks mom is holding out instead of believing she's tapped out. She reminds me of when they asked John Mccain if we were in a recession and he said no cause he's so out of touch.

My oldest sis is flying in and wanted to stay with me, I told her no because

A: She is so judgemental.My place is just a little hole in the wall and I don't want her here judging me like she always does. They would never put this place on MTV cribs but I don't care,it's mine and I love it.

B. I live far away from where the events will be and I don't want to have to plan a whole weekends worth of activities for her. I just wanna show up, pay my respects, do a 10 minute solo of "Mary don't you weep/A closer walk with thee/ I miss my homies" and leave.

C. She will dig in my pockets deep. This girl has no sense of independence cause she's always been under somebody's wing. She will show up without a dime and want me to buy her everything from meals to an outfit for the funeral.

D. I love her to PIECES, lord knows I do but she can be so fucking irritating sometimes.

She asks to stay with me and I said no. That was last week , the other night I call her and ask her where she is staying and she says she doesn't know. AAAAAGGGGHHHHHH!!! she is so frustrating!!! I gave her an extra week to find somewhere to stay and she didn't ask anyone (see reason D.)How the fuck do you fly somewhere without knowing where you will stay?

This is thursday night and she is coming friday. I tell her fine, she can stay with me.She also tells me she will be flying in around the time of the wake. I get pissed cause I will not be able to go to the wake cause the airport is an hour and a half away from the wake plus all the nonsense of the airport itself. She tells me to go and she will wait till its over. I spend friday cleaning up my place and doing laundry etc..I ask her to let me know when she boards the plane and she does. The airport is two and a half hours away from me so I leave the house around 6:30 to meet her 9:00 flight. I get there just to find out she had one of our cousins pick her up and I was INCREDIBLE HULK MAD!!!!!!! GOODNESS GRACIOUS I dont know if ive ever been so mad in all my life. She claims when she said I should go to the wake when she said she'd wait that meant she'd wait for someone else to pick her up so I wouldn't miss the wake. Once again look at reason D.

So I waste about 6 hours of my life for no reason at all friday night.

Saturday: Before I leave my house I check the bible to make sure it's not a sin to look too good because I was FLYYY-YYYYY-YYYYY. I looked so clean I almost broke my anonymous rule and posted the pic on here. I call my cousin and ask her to wait for me cause I will ride to the funeral with her because n0days0ff does not have a good sense of direction. I call her when I was 15 minutes away and ask her if I missed them and she said no but I need to hurry cause they'll be leaving shortly. I hightail it over there and am pissed off because NOONE over there is even dressed.

My cousin drops me to my uncle's because there are not enough people to fill the limo out so I ride to the funeral with him.I walk in the church and hear the doors open after me, I turn around and there is my mother. SHE MADE IT!!!!! Last time I saw her was like 8 months ago when we thought my aunt would not make it through the night. My sis calls me and asks me to go to the store and buy her a bottled water because thats the only thing she drinks (reason D.) As I go to leave they ask me to bring in the casket with my family and thats when I saw it: my beautiful aunt's body is in that casket and today we will bury her and never see her again. The lady who makes the food has died and nothing else seems to matter.

Everybody gathers around the casket and we carry it up the stairs into the church. We are so careful because she deserves all the peace in the world. We carry the casket as if she is alive and we dont want to disturb her rest. My sister comes in after this and asks me for her water, I tell her I had to bring the body in, she asks me why I didn't buy it after and I proceed to ignore her for the rest of the service.

It was a beautiful funeral, I've never seen people cry so hard but then again the world has never lost such a beautiful soul.My cousins daughter just stood there crying her little 8 year old eyes out and nothing we said could make her stop.My cousin broke down for her mom and it broke my heart. As I stood with my arm around my mother while she cried, I realized I'm not ready to lose her. Lord please don't ever take her from me.We threw our flowers in her grave and said our piece. I never want to see my mother cry like that again, I can't take it. We cried, sang, ate and laughed. It is a beautiful thing to gather with all your loved ones and put all your differences aside. My mother saw sisters she had not seen in years and me and my middle sister spoke for the first time in 4 years. The kids made posters with my aunts pictures and she watched over us as we ate at the reception. Yes I did take a plate home because you know how I roll. Deuces.